| My closet friend Lydia, on my wedding day to Josh. |
My friend Naomi, both 8.5 months pregnant with our firstborns.
This week I have been thinking about friends, and friendships. Growing up in Tasmania, I never really had close friends that I continually hung out with. I am not sure why, but down in Tassie, if you did"nt have a massive family, or were born in Tassie, it felt like I never fitted in.
When I moved to QLD I made friends with lots and lots of people.
My sister in law Charmaine, is not only a sister to me, she is a very close friend as well.
Sometimes I feel sad when I am not included in things. When I lived up the Sunshine Coast, I used to organise a lot of social things. I had the time and money to do this. It made me feel good to organise things, where every body felt comfortable. Looking back, I invested alot of time into these social events as a way of keeping busy. It was a way of dealing with grief. It made me happy. It made others happy. If it meant I did not have to think about being alone, and why I was alone, it was a distraction.
I no longer have time to organise things to do socially. Sometimes I will organise a dinner, for close friends. But I really don't have time to organise things like I used to. Working full time with three children and studying, I feel like I am time poor. I barely have time to just "be" and "chill" let alone worry about others social life, let alone my own! Which just for the record, hardly exists any more.
This week I have felt sad. I found out about a friends hens weekend, and for one reason or another I was not invited. I had many messages from friends just checking to see if I am ok. I am ok. I did cry. Alot! I did not understand. I was hurt. But, it's not the end of the world. I got over it. What is hard to get over is the amount of support I received! Not that I told people why I was so upset, it was noted that I was off facebook and lots of people were asking if everything was ok.
Nobody wants to feel forgotten. That's how I felt last weekend.
This weekend, I feel better. My husband is home, by my side. I have spent time with my kids. And, my friends that care about me, have text, called or messaged through various means, to make sure I am alright.
Thanks to you all, you know who you are 😘😘😘😘
